Where do I start? It’s been a very long time coming and I just couldn’t let another day, week, month pass without dealing with it. Today is the day that I declare a mighty break up. It’s one that is unexpected and I’m so sorry if I have disappointed any of you. I tried to make this work. I tried lowering my expectations and getting by but I just can’t anymore
The million dollar question. Why do it after such a long and sustained time together? It’s amazing how complacency and fear will keep you in a place. When we don’t know what’s next or how we’ll even handle it so we hold on. Even when we know what we’re holding on to is detrimental to us. Well, I’ve had enough.
Sugar, there’s nothing you can say to win me back. No really, added sugar, I’m breaking up with you TODAY. Yes, I know I won’t be drinking coffee anymore because it was more about you than the coffee. I know I can’t have some of the delicious desserts that you are filled with. We will not have our secret rendezvous and no you can not even stay at my home any longer. TBH it’s me, not you. I’m doing this for the betterment of my health. I want to do all that I can to keep my body in shape and be here for my favorite girls. And no I’m not looking for substitutes to fill a void. I’m not looking for alternative solutions to make me feel better. In fact I just want to be left alone.
Now I know you think this is temporary. Yes I know we had a “Break up” once before and I took you back but this tie it’s for real. You are doing more damage than good. I know you taste so good, but I can’t with you. So please don’t call or write. I don’t want to see you in commercials, I’m not looking for you in grocery stores. I won’t be meeting you at Cafe Vero in Mariano’s during our special morning visits. ITS OVER.
Did you know that reports show that the effects of sugar on the brain are close to if not worse than that of cocaine? Check out this ARTICLE for details. It’s super addicting and I failed to recognize or admit that I was her slave. I even read reports that show how cancer feeds upon it, yet continued to consume it. I was wrapped in a tangled web, desperately needing to break through. Nothing will ever change until you get tired enough to do something about it.
Over 20 years ago I lost my father. Now, I’m not saying this was the sole reason for his death, but he was given strict instruction time and again to quit eating many foods. My mom would cook differently, yet he would resist and fall back to his old ways. You can’t hold on to bad habits and expect to see good results. Change is necessary. Some of us are in the same boat. We know that there are things we do or things we consume, or even people we keep in our circle that we know aren’t good for us. We are aware yet we continue because it/he/she/ or whatever it is makes us feel good.
What have you been dealing with that you simply need to let go of? What’s stopping you? Is there something you need to break up from? I hope that my story may help push you in the direction of something better. Many say YOLO (you only live once) and we use that as a mantra to do whatever we want but I look at it in a different way. I want to make the most of my time here on earth. Its important that I enjoy it, medicine free. I want to enjoy it free from the pains associated with addiction and mistreatment of my body as long as God allows.
I had to tell everyone of you because I need you to hold me accountable. I know it will not be easy, but added sugar is gone from my life. Help me stay consistent and true. I know it won’t be easy, but the Bible says with God, all things are possible. It seems like breakups are in the air. My sister, Kay Monelle – The Scream Queen just had a break up with BREAD. She has an awesome journey and story worth reading HERE. Follow her IG feed @KayMonelle