I asked the Lord how did we miss this. Why did we not know what was coming? Did he not care to prepare us?Legit questions I had on my mind as I lay awake this week.
As I lay there thinking almost immediately I believe this was the response I received from the Lord. You were too busy. So I took a moment and looked at my life.
I was too busy trying to gain new clients. Too busy trying to stack paper. Too busy trying to refine my website. Too busy setting up meetings. Too busy writing blogs. Too busy being busy.
Just too busy. Some of those things I even attributed to the church. I mean, I was even too busy writing sermons. Was I really so busy that I missed hearing the voice of God? So busy that my time of intimacy was displaced by a quick opportunity to pray as I was on to my next thing. So busy that I missed. Period. Obviously it wasn’t Him, it was me.
Yeah I know seek ye first, but these bills are due, kids need shoes, wife needs a vacation and on and on… it’s like that spot we reserved on Sunday morning is enough. That 2 hours max is what we give thinking that will give us what we need to move the way you need. In reality that is nothing compared to what you desire. Proximity, closeness- relationship yup that’s what you desire and we, wait let me speak for me, I have strayed pursuing everything else and even things in YOUR NAME.
Lord forgive me for my short sighted ways. Forgive me for not giving you the time you deserved. Forgive me for my lacking ways. I realize how much more I should be. Not how much more I should have but how much power I should operate in. Not for me but to point back to YOU.
I believe we should have stopped this. We could have blocked this but let’s not digress. What’s here is here. So lets shift to our rightful place. Minus the distractions
Father, I wholeheartedly repent. Forgive me. As I turn from my wrongs I ask that you do what your word says. 2 Chronicles 7:14 – If my people who are called by my name would humble themselves and pray. Seek my face and turn from their wicked ways. Then would I hear from heaven, forgive their sins and heal the land.
I am your people Lord. I am looking to see the healing. You have my full attention.